even when…

Even when I can’t see it you’re working

Even when I don’t feel it, you’re working

You never stop, you never stop working

These are some lyrics from a song that really has carried me through this past year. (The song is Way Maker in case you are curious!) This is a song that has rung true for me because as I now reflect on these past ~twenty two~ years of life, I see where God has turned what the enemy intended to harm me with for Good. And I’m using a captial G here for a reason.

You see, nothing you or I could ever do or fail to do will ever fully be good. Not in the way of our God at least.

“Why do you call me good?” Jesus answered. “No one is good – except God alone.”

Mark 10:18 (NIV)

Growing up, I was always taught that the most important part of participating in a well functioning society was to be a good person. Well guess what? This society is not all that well not functioning. AND only God is truly good. At the end of the day, we are all broken, which is why I believe that we are all desperately in need of a savior. I believe this is Jesus Christ who defeated death for our sins, and if you know me or even if you’ve gotten to this point in the post, I am sure you know this truth about me.

The most incredible piece of God, aside from ~everything~ , is His gifts are freely given to all who seek His face. No, I do not literally mean His face. I mean God as whole. We are so ready to be intimate with one another, but what about being intimate with the One who created such a concept? What about searching for love and the meaning of life in the One who defines it for us? What about learning goodness from the One who is fully Good and fully God?

So, back to my point. I always sort of assumed that because I was a good person – for the most part – things would work out for me. And while that is not a horrible way to think, it is a foundation which will crumble because it was one set around what I could do for myself instead of what God can do through me if I would just hand over the reigns.

Another ~beautiful~ piece of our Creator is His gift of free will. Love without choice is not love at all! Not convinced? Go read the infamous 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 and then get back to me!

I used to hate the concept that everything happens for a reason. I could not understand why certain tragedies took place in the lives of those who seemed to be good, or at least already disadvantaged and/or marginalized. Couldn’t they catch a break? Couldn’t I catch a break? And therein lies the issue with my ego. How selfish was I to believe that the all powerful Lord didn’t already have it worked out for the good of those who love Him? It was not by my own works for merit, but by His grace that I am allowed to enter into His presence.

But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Romans 5:8 (ESV)

Like I have mentioned many times before, this season of life has been one of reflection and growth. I now know that because I am freely choosing to surrender my life to Jesus each day that He has always been by my side, fighting for me, even when I can not see it. Even when I felt abandoned by God. Because the truth is, I was putting my trust in the world instead of the One who made it.

And yes, you did read this correctly. It is a choice each moment to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus. He has always been fighting for me and that is no longer a fact that I will take lightly.

Even when I feel…

worthless

unloveable

insecure

Even when I feel like I am alone in this world, I will choose to hold tightly to His truths. I do this because He is the God who will create life out of dust, water into wine, leave a tomb empty, and leave the ninety nine.

He is the One who cherishes me and loves me by bearing, hoping, believing, and enduring my imperfections and failures.

For this I will ever be grateful. And for this I will continually praise Him!

If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.

Jeremiah 29:13 (NLT)

As we enter the month of suicide awareness, I want to leave you with this one, simple truth. God loves you, even when. Here I am letting you know He is waiting for you to cry out to Him so He can prove that He is your God even when! He is Good and He is God!

You are SO loved!

Keep picking those daisies!

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